Thursday, May 7, 2009

Fear

I don't get it. On paper, I have the best life ever. I have INCREDIBLE (yes, they are cap worthy) kids, unbelievably awesome friends, the best colleagues a working person could ever have. And yet, I am stymied. I can't move forward. Why? Is is fear of failure? No...I don't think so, I fail all the time. I am not afraid to speak my mind, I have great ideas. I do possess a little jealousy~sometimes I look around and think "I could do that". I could be a writer, a world famous blogger, an expert on something, get my Ed Leadership Masters and be a catalyst of change at the District level. I could eat better, exercise more~I CAN complete that sprint triathlon I keep yapping about, I know it~ so why aren't I doing any of those things? Is it fear of failure? No~I think it boils down to fear of success.

1 comment:

Renee' said...

Ouch! Thought provoking. I'm just the opposite. I fear failure. I strive and have to "get the A". It's warped but it's me. I will stand by your side, my dear friend, and support you through any or all of this. Triathlon, Ed Leadership, writing partners, whatever it takes. I WILL be here for you! And you should know that I appreciate how you are ALWAYS there for me!